Discovering Kaydi Johnson
In the last ten years, all female singer-songwriters are condemned to be measured against the success and depth of Norah Jones. And during the past decade, few have been able to match the raw talent of Jones — whose sultry voice and uncanny ability to capture the emotion of the moment in four-minute pop symphonies has gone largely unchallenged.
However, in terms of pure raw talent, Jones might have found some formidable competition in Kaydi Johnson, a brilliant songwriter who hails from upstate New York. Johnson is, quite simply, the most original voice I've discovered in the last several years — her writing sensual and honest, her heart naked on the table, revealed in the tumbling stories that make up the best of her body of work.
Johnson has released three CDs to date (Tied, No goDs Allowed and Peasant of The Wreck), and the thing that really separates her from the pack is the writing. In these 'moviescapes' full of bloodied faces, Johnson records the paths of broken people with lost eyes, writing about the ones who have been hit hard but who still somehow remain standing. In sum, these are men and women who have multiple scars but who nonetheless are comfortable with their blemishes — each tear in the skin brings them closer to the edge of the light:
…I say acting because I don't really think he knows who he is. But one thing is sure, he has a body that is very consistent. He might have differences of mind roaming through it but the body moves like clock-work like clock-work. Like music. Like poetry…
— From "Eddie"
"Eddie" is Johnson's true masterwork as she unravels life into the threads of an epic poem. Here, Johnson stamps out her style with indelible flair as the piece moves back and forth between recitation and soft singing: The poet on stage overtaken by the purpose of her own story takes us deep into the labyrinths of herself. And there she kneels: Making love to each and every image in her mind; and there she kneels, reconnecting with spirits just beyond the tongues of this human sphere:
I turn around to look and see nothing but the dark snatching the shadows of trees as we drive away…
— From "Eddie"
"Eddie" is not so much a song as it is a short story or a musical mini-movie. And herein lies the true beauty of Johnson's work. At once, her performances simultaneously intersect various genres and mediums, painting pictures of a half-hidden America (see "American Grocery Store") where shadows stumble about in the ultimate search for self and contentment.
Yet, what's most haunting about Johnson's stories is that she actually allows you to see and taste yourself in her lines — the jumble of words frozen on the paper finding their random order as we stop to breathe. Yes, squint hard and it's not Eddie's face but your own visage flying down that highway in the moonlight — there, lost among the leaves, thirsty to touch what cannot be named or comprehended.
Still, listeners should not be misled into thinking that Johnson's work is only about the writing. Instead, you will find her voice absolutely captivating, its petals blooming into a subtle diamond-honed blade, guided by spirits in the night. Like some unique amalgamation of Rosanne Cash, Bobbie Gentry, Suzanne Vega and Nico, Johnson's delivery soothes and comforts as it searches and aches, polishing the melody of each number into this perfect sun-spotted piece of sky:
Those stars are not really stars, you said, they're lingering reflections of burnt out lights gone dead, they're worlds gone by we can still see — the light-blast twinkling pulse of eternity…
— From "Night Student"
The best music-moments have the knack of infiltrating the consciousness, ending as an extension of the listener's soul. And the best moments in Kaydi Johnson's songs celebrate this magic ritual. The minute you spin one of her records you're embarking on a journey back into yourself — because her "Mary" and her "Eddie" are only archetypes of the hidden self as the universal questions of "Who am I?" and "Where am I going?" are met head-on and with deep urgency.
But as Johnson deftly shows us, the lesson is not to look for answers — since there are none to be found. Rather, the point of the exercise is about digging through the delicate rubble of skin and bone and confronting your own demons still lost on the shelf.
Alas, the sole point of the exercise is to ask yourself endless questions without turning tail and running away from the stale waves of confusion, fear and isolation:
The more I look the more I see, there's something hot inside of me. I'm sister to those burning spheres that shine but have been gone for years…
— From "Night Student"
Ten Minutes With Songwriter Kaydi Johnson
Can you tell me a bit about your writing background and education?
Well, I studied literature and secondary education at the State University of New York and then went on to take my MFA in fiction writing at Sarah Lawrence College.
And when did your musical odyssey begin?
I wrote my first song with an old guitar that my parents had in the attic. The thing only had three strings on it, but I grabbed it nonetheless and started picking. And a song came out. I was about 12 years old at the time.
So did you have any formal training as a musician, or are you self-taught?
I never took a lesson; I do everything by ear. I have to hear a song before I can write and sing it.
And who do you recognize as your greatest influences?
That's a good question — I'd say Bob Dylan. James Taylor. Joni Mitchell of course. And Carole King as well. They're influences and I listened to them, but I am definitely not like any of them. They had my attention though, and no doubt influenced me subliminally.
And your literary influences?
Shakespeare! Shakespeare is one of my big influences musically as well. I am so excited by what he did with language and with words — all that had a big impact on my songwriting.
You definitely have an original style in terms of songwriting. Some of your pieces (such as "Eddie") roll on like movies, compelling the absolute attention of your audience. Can you tell me how this writing form evolved into its present state?
Well, when I was in grad school I was writing short-stories and poetry. And "Eddie" actually started out as a short-story. Sometime after I wrote it I looked at it differently and wondered if I could create a chorus and make it a song. So I wrote the chorus and created some simple music to carry it — this finger-picking rhythm set to a spoken-word format. "Eddie" is long, around 8 minutes. And it really defied the odds, because everybody said it was much too long for radio. But ironically, it's the one that brought me my first radio air-play.
Were there other songs that started out as literary compositions?
Yes, "Night Student" started as an essay about the cosmos and the stars. I later tapered it down and it became a song. "Ode to Toes" started out as a long poem before I turned it into the song that's on the record. I guess what I try to do with my records is write a mix of things, giving people the widest variety of material I can.
What do you look to put in your stories — what captivates you?
Well, the character has to carry it. After that, I look for a visual; I look to conjure a setting in my head. And I love metaphor. But as a writer I don't deliberately create metaphors. They create themselves. And I discover them.
So is "Eddie" real or is he pure fiction?
He's a bit of both. There is something truly interesting and universal about "Eddie." There is something in that character that every man can identify with, just as there is something universal in the voice of the narrator that every woman can identify with. I guess it comes down to the human qualities of the voices. [Long pause] Songs are alive. They are not static. They change as we change. "Eddie" is that type of song…
Is there a particular thing you strive for when you perform?
Yeah, I want my voice to be clear. Because my music is lyric-based, the audience has to understand what I am saying. It's all about me, my songs and the guitar. That's the nucleus of what I do. And to get something out of the experience you have to hear the lyrics. So I'm looking for that clarity of voice.
And what do you do when you're not writing or performing?
I like to hike, swim, cook. I love the outdoors. I love to be in nature. My day does not feel complete if I haven't been outside. It's one of my priorities to get outside. It always makes me more productive in the writing world…